英语翻译一直以来我以为我自己能忘记所有原来都是在自己骗自己每天我都在幻想幻想有天能改变结果越是去幻想就越痛苦我不想这样子过生活真的不想可我能为自己做些什么错的不

All the times I thought I have forgoten everything but now I found I was cheating myself. I indulges in absent-minded daydreaming and dream of changing the result but the more I fantasize, the painful I will. I do not want to live like this ,really don't want to but what I can do for myself, I do not know at all. I am not the one who is wrong but always the one who gets hurt .How can I get rid of it ,I am really tired of living like this .
完全自己翻译,望不吝采纳